whats your stocking stuffer?
my little snow man :)
the essentials - this month
12:02 PM
Tomorrow, it will be a month since I have became a momma, & I thought I would list the essentials that got me through my first month, with alot of my friends just about to have their babies & those who are planning to have a baby!- i'll do another as she grows & my fav things change
The Boppy (it even came with a ladybug on it, perfect for my buggy! )
absolute must. if you pregnant, & don't have one..get one! Awesome for breastfeeding, for younger children that want to hold baby, or for anyone for that matter when you arm starts to hurt, perfect for baby to lay in (bug loves it) & for tummy time. all together, it is the absolute mommy-must-have.
Also if you go online, they have a "build-a-boppy" link where you have a naked pillow & you pick the fabric & can use two kinds for front & back!
JJ Cole Bundle Me.This is for us mommas up north in the colder climate. Yeah yeah, I know the controversy
with it being safer when you cut the back out & only use it for the stroller. But I have it in pink, & have had not one problem with her safety harness & I LOVE IT. It keeps her so so warm & blocks the wind when having to go from the car into a place. Plus, you don't have to bundle up your baby in tons of clothes & a coat & having to re-size the safety harness, or about choke your baby out trying to get the harness over that adorable fluffy coat! ;) All-in-all in my personal opinion it is also a must have for us northern mommas.
sidenote: they are normally 45ish dollars, I recommend going to a resale shop, mine was used for one winter & I snagged mine for a fab 6.95$! (insert cheesy "cha-ching" noise here)
Baby Trend bouncer. Bug loves the vibration & the music. I put it on my dinning room table when blogging & she is up to look around, when I need to take a shower,or doing the dishes! If it wasn't for this & her swing I wouldn't get anything done while she was awake!
Moses Basket. This is so much easier than lugging around a play-yard to & from grandmas houses, which I have found with holiday shenanigans. Some people don't like them, but while she is this little, I am loving it. It's perfect for relative houses & I keep it downstairs for her to nap in. & I load everything I need to take in to grandma's in it to carry, which make less trips to & from the car for momma! :)
The Boppy (it even came with a ladybug on it, perfect for my buggy! )absolute must. if you pregnant, & don't have one..get one! Awesome for breastfeeding, for younger children that want to hold baby, or for anyone for that matter when you arm starts to hurt, perfect for baby to lay in (bug loves it) & for tummy time. all together, it is the absolute mommy-must-have.
Also if you go online, they have a "build-a-boppy" link where you have a naked pillow & you pick the fabric & can use two kinds for front & back!
JJ Cole Bundle Me.This is for us mommas up north in the colder climate. Yeah yeah, I know the controversy
with it being safer when you cut the back out & only use it for the stroller. But I have it in pink, & have had not one problem with her safety harness & I LOVE IT. It keeps her so so warm & blocks the wind when having to go from the car into a place. Plus, you don't have to bundle up your baby in tons of clothes & a coat & having to re-size the safety harness, or about choke your baby out trying to get the harness over that adorable fluffy coat! ;) All-in-all in my personal opinion it is also a must have for us northern mommas.
sidenote: they are normally 45ish dollars, I recommend going to a resale shop, mine was used for one winter & I snagged mine for a fab 6.95$! (insert cheesy "cha-ching" noise here)Baby Trend bouncer. Bug loves the vibration & the music. I put it on my dinning room table when blogging & she is up to look around, when I need to take a shower,or doing the dishes! If it wasn't for this & her swing I wouldn't get anything done while she was awake!
Moses Basket. This is so much easier than lugging around a play-yard to & from grandmas houses, which I have found with holiday shenanigans. Some people don't like them, but while she is this little, I am loving it. It's perfect for relative houses & I keep it downstairs for her to nap in. & I load everything I need to take in to grandma's in it to carry, which make less trips to & from the car for momma! :)
i give you...
12:22 PM
...the face of kennedy, all within 2 seconds of one another in just under a minute!
my favs are the 4th (it looks like she is waving) the 5th (geez sad face) and the last one, that litterly puts me in tears its so funny!
my favs are the 4th (it looks like she is waving) the 5th (geez sad face) and the last one, that litterly puts me in tears its so funny!
birth story.
6:10 PM
I probally should have wrote this alot sooner, so my memory was fresh. So, Im writing this to be best of my ability with my memory!
November 16th 4:00 AM- I woke up at 4 am full of energy which seems weird beings the day before I had blew the leaves in the backyard (we have a big-big backyard) & stacked a bunch of wood, because I was to have a doctors appt the next day & Brandon had the day off & I wanted to spend the whole day with him, & wanted to do those things so he wouldn't have to. Anyway! I started watching a Christmas movie on Hallmark, when I started to feel kinda queasy so I ate a bowl of cereal. When the back pain started.
It hurt, but nothing to bad. When I realized the pain was coming in intervals. 4 mins apart. I thought hmm, these can't be contraction because they were nothing like what I had been experiencing for 9 weeks of pre-term. My stomach wasn't hard or anything. I called my mother & asked what back labor felt like. She swore up & down I was in labor (I had saw her @ about 11 at night the day before where she said, I think your in labor. I thought she was insane) I woke Brandon & told him this might be it, stay in bed & got my stuff together. Then, I called L&D and said to the nurse "this may sound strange, but what does back labor feel like" I explained what I was going thru & she told me I was fine & just go to my appt that day at 1 in the afternoon.
Just minutes later, the pain was about 2 mins apart & I vomited. I again woke up Brandon told him I was just going to get checked just in case, he didn't have to come if he didn't want cause I was more than positive I was not in labor. He over course wanted to come, but we left all my stuff & Kennedys at home.
We pull in when by now the pain was less than 1 min apart, we are walking thru the parking lot where I had one very bad "pain" got down to squat & was saying "ow ow ow..." look on the ground & there was a 50 dollar bill! We walk in laughing on how we couldn't believe what I had found, the pain still very close together but not awful pain at all, very bearable.
I get into a room, that was still being cleaned. & get check. I was 8 cm!!! Good thing I didn't listen to that nurse huh? & on top of that she told me not to come in because they didn't have enough room! She asked if I wanted a epideral or just a shot since I was so far. My birth plan was not to get anything if I came in & was 7. But the pain was getting a little more intense, again not bad though. & decided to get the epidural just with a bolus button where I could just push it when I need it. They broke my water, it was clear. But Kennedy was OP. I got on my hands on knees to get her to turn. During this time was probably twas so hard because I wanted to push so bad, but couldn't. Which is when I pressed the button for first & only time. (the pain just wasn't that bad) So, I grunted & did very light pushes to ease the sensation. & YAY she turned.
Within minutes I was 10 cm & ready to push! Brandon was amazing, with coaching me. Telling me how great I was doing, that he loved me ect ect. He did great counting, although I do remember he stopped once & I yelled at him ! haha Speaking of counting my best friend in the whole world Joel, & Kennedy's god-father was outside the room, door cracked counting with Brandon & yelling "you can do it"; which gave me a huge laugh in it all. I was yelling I did want to poop! & every time they told me to push I would yell "no i'm gonna poop I can feel it" hahahha they nurses were laughing up a storm but I was bound & determined not to go number #2!
I got her down to crowning in only about 10 or less minutes. Which is where, I feel was the hardest since the rest was really just a cinch.I got her to come about out to her ears when I gave up & back in she went. I started crying yelling "i wasn't strong enough & i couldn't do it" I was so discouraged, I was made to do this & I felt like I couldn't. When Brandon said she had brown hair, & I gave it all I had. The dr unwrapped the cord from her neck & onto my stomach. She didn't cry.
& continued to not cry for what seemed like forever. I started scream saying "cry cry cry" the dr yelled back saying "TARA, she is fine; she is breathing" but I continued to yell {i think any momma needs to hear that cry regardless} & that is when she gave a some what "geeze mom shut up" soft short little "wah". It was if it was just to let me know "hey, im ok."
Which is when I fell in love. I saw for the first time the most little perfect angel, my miracle, my daughter. After just under 5 hours of labor, 2 years of trying, 2 miscarriages, weeks in the hospital, weeks of terrifying pre-term labor,hurt & pain...I was a mom. The one thing I had wanted more than anything else in the whole world. The one thing, I spent so much heartache & time striving to be. I was a mom to the most beautiful little girl in the world.
We did Kangaroo time, which is when the nurses don't touch, weight or do anything to your baby & he/she lays on your chest skin-to-skin for the first hour; where you also try to breast feed. This is the most amazing hour of your life. & it goes by so fast I suggest this to every pregnant mother to do this. That first hour is in describable.
I told her of how much she was wanted, how much she was loved. How we had tried so hard for her, & how so many people loved her. I told her of what a miracle she really was. & how she was my daughter, & promised her to be the best momma I could ever be to her.
I remember, after an hour my mom asked if she could hold her "the hour is up" {not everyone was on the bagwagon with my birthplan} she wanted to hold her grandbaby, & I cried saying "its already been an hour?, shes growing up so fast!" - I def think emotions are worse after pregnancy!
After, that hour we found that our beautiful baby was 7lbs 5 oz & 21 1/2 in long.
my photographer missed the birth by 7 mins, but got these beautiful shots of after the birth. The photos are as always by Jess at J3Designz.
November 16th 4:00 AM- I woke up at 4 am full of energy which seems weird beings the day before I had blew the leaves in the backyard (we have a big-big backyard) & stacked a bunch of wood, because I was to have a doctors appt the next day & Brandon had the day off & I wanted to spend the whole day with him, & wanted to do those things so he wouldn't have to. Anyway! I started watching a Christmas movie on Hallmark, when I started to feel kinda queasy so I ate a bowl of cereal. When the back pain started.
It hurt, but nothing to bad. When I realized the pain was coming in intervals. 4 mins apart. I thought hmm, these can't be contraction because they were nothing like what I had been experiencing for 9 weeks of pre-term. My stomach wasn't hard or anything. I called my mother & asked what back labor felt like. She swore up & down I was in labor (I had saw her @ about 11 at night the day before where she said, I think your in labor. I thought she was insane) I woke Brandon & told him this might be it, stay in bed & got my stuff together. Then, I called L&D and said to the nurse "this may sound strange, but what does back labor feel like" I explained what I was going thru & she told me I was fine & just go to my appt that day at 1 in the afternoon.
Just minutes later, the pain was about 2 mins apart & I vomited. I again woke up Brandon told him I was just going to get checked just in case, he didn't have to come if he didn't want cause I was more than positive I was not in labor. He over course wanted to come, but we left all my stuff & Kennedys at home.
We pull in when by now the pain was less than 1 min apart, we are walking thru the parking lot where I had one very bad "pain" got down to squat & was saying "ow ow ow..." look on the ground & there was a 50 dollar bill! We walk in laughing on how we couldn't believe what I had found, the pain still very close together but not awful pain at all, very bearable.
I get into a room, that was still being cleaned. & get check. I was 8 cm!!! Good thing I didn't listen to that nurse huh? & on top of that she told me not to come in because they didn't have enough room! She asked if I wanted a epideral or just a shot since I was so far. My birth plan was not to get anything if I came in & was 7. But the pain was getting a little more intense, again not bad though. & decided to get the epidural just with a bolus button where I could just push it when I need it. They broke my water, it was clear. But Kennedy was OP. I got on my hands on knees to get her to turn. During this time was probably twas so hard because I wanted to push so bad, but couldn't. Which is when I pressed the button for first & only time. (the pain just wasn't that bad) So, I grunted & did very light pushes to ease the sensation. & YAY she turned.
Within minutes I was 10 cm & ready to push! Brandon was amazing, with coaching me. Telling me how great I was doing, that he loved me ect ect. He did great counting, although I do remember he stopped once & I yelled at him ! haha Speaking of counting my best friend in the whole world Joel, & Kennedy's god-father was outside the room, door cracked counting with Brandon & yelling "you can do it"; which gave me a huge laugh in it all. I was yelling I did want to poop! & every time they told me to push I would yell "no i'm gonna poop I can feel it" hahahha they nurses were laughing up a storm but I was bound & determined not to go number #2!
I got her down to crowning in only about 10 or less minutes. Which is where, I feel was the hardest since the rest was really just a cinch.I got her to come about out to her ears when I gave up & back in she went. I started crying yelling "i wasn't strong enough & i couldn't do it" I was so discouraged, I was made to do this & I felt like I couldn't. When Brandon said she had brown hair, & I gave it all I had. The dr unwrapped the cord from her neck & onto my stomach. She didn't cry.
& continued to not cry for what seemed like forever. I started scream saying "cry cry cry" the dr yelled back saying "TARA, she is fine; she is breathing" but I continued to yell {i think any momma needs to hear that cry regardless} & that is when she gave a some what "geeze mom shut up" soft short little "wah". It was if it was just to let me know "hey, im ok."
Which is when I fell in love. I saw for the first time the most little perfect angel, my miracle, my daughter. After just under 5 hours of labor, 2 years of trying, 2 miscarriages, weeks in the hospital, weeks of terrifying pre-term labor,hurt & pain...I was a mom. The one thing I had wanted more than anything else in the whole world. The one thing, I spent so much heartache & time striving to be. I was a mom to the most beautiful little girl in the world.
We did Kangaroo time, which is when the nurses don't touch, weight or do anything to your baby & he/she lays on your chest skin-to-skin for the first hour; where you also try to breast feed. This is the most amazing hour of your life. & it goes by so fast I suggest this to every pregnant mother to do this. That first hour is in describable.
I told her of how much she was wanted, how much she was loved. How we had tried so hard for her, & how so many people loved her. I told her of what a miracle she really was. & how she was my daughter, & promised her to be the best momma I could ever be to her.
I remember, after an hour my mom asked if she could hold her "the hour is up" {not everyone was on the bagwagon with my birthplan} she wanted to hold her grandbaby, & I cried saying "its already been an hour?, shes growing up so fast!" - I def think emotions are worse after pregnancy!
After, that hour we found that our beautiful baby was 7lbs 5 oz & 21 1/2 in long.
my photographer missed the birth by 7 mins, but got these beautiful shots of after the birth. The photos are as always by Jess at J3Designz.
My Sister, Kennedy's Aunt Tiffany
My mother, Kennedy's Nana
My mom's baby, had a baby, & is now a mom
My best friend in the whole world, Joel. Kennedy's god-father.
That day, my dream came true; I became a mom.
hit by a semi
4:10 PM
..ok so I wasn't. But, I feel as though I have. I can not cough, walk up stairs, walk to briskly or pick anything up. & cry in constant pain.
Why you may ask? Two things: clogged ducts that resulted in Mastitis/breast infection. It came on litterly with in 4 hours. I all of a sudden could not get up cause the pain on my chest was so bad. I at first thought it was just the clogged duct so I did the warm water & massaging & continued to pump. But, the pumping was the most painful thing I seriously have ever experienced & I had not had a ounce of pain in the past 2 weeks of pumping or breastfeeding.
So, after a emotional breakdown of why does everything that has to do with my precious Kennedy have to be so hard for me (getting pregnant, staying pregnant, having AWFUL first 2 and a half trimesters,pre-term labor & now this) My Mom came over & called the dr. The nurse said to wrap an ace bandage around my chest & to take it off to pump. That helped a little with pain but when I pumped I was getting maybe an ounce a breast. I normally get 4 each. & said to watch for redness it could be an infection & leave a permanent lump. :S So when I took buggy to her appt the next day, the dr checked & sure enough since my breast we ginormous I could see the one side that was RED! He taught me to pinch the side hard trying to release the milk, where I cry & scream the whole time. & have to be put on pen.icillin which I could either let them dry up which by the way you do by wrapping the ace bandage around, stupid nurse or continue to pump & have a 80% chance of giving Kennedy thrush! UGH! Well, I am hoping I have enough milk stored to last 10 days of my Rx. If not we are going to substitute for a day or so. Crossing fingers.
Anyway, sorry for the long post. But I had never heard of a this infection just the clogged duct & thought I would share my experience with you moms!
Why you may ask? Two things: clogged ducts that resulted in Mastitis/breast infection. It came on litterly with in 4 hours. I all of a sudden could not get up cause the pain on my chest was so bad. I at first thought it was just the clogged duct so I did the warm water & massaging & continued to pump. But, the pumping was the most painful thing I seriously have ever experienced & I had not had a ounce of pain in the past 2 weeks of pumping or breastfeeding.
So, after a emotional breakdown of why does everything that has to do with my precious Kennedy have to be so hard for me (getting pregnant, staying pregnant, having AWFUL first 2 and a half trimesters,pre-term labor & now this) My Mom came over & called the dr. The nurse said to wrap an ace bandage around my chest & to take it off to pump. That helped a little with pain but when I pumped I was getting maybe an ounce a breast. I normally get 4 each. & said to watch for redness it could be an infection & leave a permanent lump. :S So when I took buggy to her appt the next day, the dr checked & sure enough since my breast we ginormous I could see the one side that was RED! He taught me to pinch the side hard trying to release the milk, where I cry & scream the whole time. & have to be put on pen.icillin which I could either let them dry up which by the way you do by wrapping the ace bandage around, stupid nurse or continue to pump & have a 80% chance of giving Kennedy thrush! UGH! Well, I am hoping I have enough milk stored to last 10 days of my Rx. If not we are going to substitute for a day or so. Crossing fingers.
Anyway, sorry for the long post. But I had never heard of a this infection just the clogged duct & thought I would share my experience with you moms!
slacker
3:46 PM
Well, as much as I tried, I can never keep up with any blog challenge. *sigh* But it was fun the few days that I did do it. So if you are a visitor from the challenge I do apologize! But, it seems as though this momma has not had the time to blog lately.
Speaking of, I missed Kennedy's 2 weeks update so here it is!
Speaking of, I missed Kennedy's 2 weeks update so here it is!
I AM 2 WEEKS OLD!
Not the best picture cause its on my blackberry! But cute none the less :)
We went to the drs for her second appt & from last week I am happy to announce she is past her birth weight, FINALLY. 7lbs 9oz! (they say it takes two weeks to get back to with birth weight with breastfed babies) At birth, 7lbs 5 oz. When we left the hospital, 6lbs 12oz. Last weeks appt, 6lbs 15oz! So, ALL those feedings have paid off ;) She seriously is such a chunker she eats ALOT! I love it.
On the 29th of November she lost her cord FINALLY. We are..well Mom & buggy are waking up less every night. She has yet to actually full out scream cry like the ones you see on "Bringing Home Baby" & "Baby Story" she is more of a grunter. Which I am ok with. She is honestly just a pretty laid-back baby, for now at least ;) I love snuggling with her. Her favorite is on my chest with her butt in the air, just like in my tummy. I melt everything, which is multiple times a day! :)
Kennedy Leigh
6:21 PM
Proud to announce Kennedy Leigh, 7lb 5oz ,21.5" long changed my whole life on the 16th @ 11:49 AM & taking my breathe away every minute.
in labor!
10:31 AM
In labor as I type! Will update soon! I am going to be a mommy today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNEDY!
mommy's newest DIY project
8:51 PM
Kennedy's 1st Thanksgiving outfit! Made with love from mommy! (the tutu that is)
the onesie is a 0-3 im going to try to shrink it, if I can't. I am back on the hunt because finding one that is newborn has been brutal. I have not found any. But one, & it didn't have a turkey or anything on it.
Anyway. This is my second tutu attempt, the first was a sewing one & this one is the knot one which I like better. I need to trim it up, but other than that I must say my daughter will be one adorable looking baby on her first thanksgiving! GOBBLE GOBBLE! :)
37 weeks!!
2:32 PM
How far along? 37 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: lord, i don't even want to know.
Sleep: mm 20 mins a night? & maybe a nap if I am lucky
Food cravings: making pumpkin bread this evening. it sounded delish.
Best moment this week: got THEE cutest ralph lauren dress (one of my fav desingers) for drum roll please TEN DOLLARS! normally 40! so whoop whoop! Her RL collection is still small but growing :)
This is the dress but in pink! it comes with a diaper cover as well! & the horse is in a different spot it is up where it would be on a polo, which is why it was on sale instead of on the pocket like the picture. odd, but saved money in pocket :)
Movement: still pretty painful, i have to push in her body parts which frequently
Labor Signs: 2 1/2 cm dilated & head stationed as of last thursday! & barely any contractions this week. Will update with dilation & what not tomorow after my appt.
Gender: pretty pretty princess
Stretchies: i dont even want to talk about it.
Belly Button in or out? not quite out but you can see it pokin thru my shirt!
What I miss: SLEEP!
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival anytime now!!!!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: making it another week!!
Weekly wisdom: when having back and pelvic pain, getting on your knees and forearms spreading your legs open shoulder-width relieves alot of pain (not as much as I would hope, but for those that haven't had a baby stationed for weeks, it would probably be more beneficial) as well as "baby pose" for yoga.
Emotions: happy, ecstatic, exhausted
Total weight gain/loss: lord, i don't even want to know.
Sleep: mm 20 mins a night? & maybe a nap if I am lucky
Food cravings: making pumpkin bread this evening. it sounded delish.
Best moment this week: got THEE cutest ralph lauren dress (one of my fav desingers) for drum roll please TEN DOLLARS! normally 40! so whoop whoop! Her RL collection is still small but growing :)
This is the dress but in pink! it comes with a diaper cover as well! & the horse is in a different spot it is up where it would be on a polo, which is why it was on sale instead of on the pocket like the picture. odd, but saved money in pocket :)
we also did alllll of the paper work you usually do when you first come in for delivery! Including her birth certificate & social security number paperwork, just had to leave the date & time blank! Brandon was smiling from EAR TO EAR. So adorable.
Movement: still pretty painful, i have to push in her body parts which frequently
Labor Signs: 2 1/2 cm dilated & head stationed as of last thursday! & barely any contractions this week. Will update with dilation & what not tomorow after my appt.
Gender: pretty pretty princess
Stretchies: i dont even want to talk about it.
Belly Button in or out? not quite out but you can see it pokin thru my shirt!
What I miss: SLEEP!
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival anytime now!!!!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: making it another week!!
Weekly wisdom: when having back and pelvic pain, getting on your knees and forearms spreading your legs open shoulder-width relieves alot of pain (not as much as I would hope, but for those that haven't had a baby stationed for weeks, it would probably be more beneficial) as well as "baby pose" for yoga.
Emotions: happy, ecstatic, exhausted
cutting the cord.
4:20 PM
So I have to turn in my official birthplan on Thursday! I had already written for Brandon to cut the cord (I had just assumed this was a given), & when I was reading it to him. He kinda gave a funny look. & I asked what? Do you not want to? & he replies "uhh, I don't know" but he wouldn't answer why he didn't know if he was going to. I talked to my mom about it & she said she wanted to do it then. So today, I went & visited him at work to eat lunch & told him that my mom said she would if didn't want to. He had this huge fit, then finally told me why he didn't know. The poor man thinks he is going to hurt her. I couldn't help but giggle but felt so bad about it. I told him he def wouldn't be hurting her & there is a small chance he wouldn't even be able to with the cord being around her neck.
So my question is to my preggy friends, if your husband nervous about cutting the cord & I am werid for assuming all husbands/partners are automatically going to want to do it?
So my question is to my preggy friends, if your husband nervous about cutting the cord & I am werid for assuming all husbands/partners are automatically going to want to do it?
36 weeks!
5:25 PM
How far along? 36 weeks! HOLY COW!
Total weight gain/loss: with this halloween candy, im prob up 100lbs we will see hahah
Sleep: still getting 45min to a hour of sleep a night
Food cravings: nothing really, im just eating everything in sight.
Best moment this week: painting my belly to look like a pumpkin :)
Movement: its gone down considerably. but she is running out of room in there alot of it when she does is very painful.
Labor Signs: 2 1/2 cm dilated & head stationed as of thursday! & as always contractions.
Gender: a daddys little girl
Stretchies: i dont even want to talk about it.
Belly Button in or out? still flat when she moves certain ways it comes out just a little but not a offically "outtie"
What I miss: nothing that i wouldn't trade for my buggy
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival anytime now!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: making it another week!!
Weekly wisdom: As much as your husband thinks it funny to watch you try to get up off the couch, it isn't & gives you every excuse to slug him :)
Emotions: nervous,happy, ecstatic,PAIN
Total weight gain/loss: with this halloween candy, im prob up 100lbs we will see hahah
Sleep: still getting 45min to a hour of sleep a night
Food cravings: nothing really, im just eating everything in sight.
Best moment this week: painting my belly to look like a pumpkin :)
Movement: its gone down considerably. but she is running out of room in there alot of it when she does is very painful.
Labor Signs: 2 1/2 cm dilated & head stationed as of thursday! & as always contractions.
Gender: a daddys little girl
Stretchies: i dont even want to talk about it.
Belly Button in or out? still flat when she moves certain ways it comes out just a little but not a offically "outtie"
What I miss: nothing that i wouldn't trade for my buggy
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival anytime now!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: making it another week!!
Weekly wisdom: As much as your husband thinks it funny to watch you try to get up off the couch, it isn't & gives you every excuse to slug him :)
Emotions: nervous,happy, ecstatic,PAIN
35 week dr update!
11:08 AM
I am 2 1/2 cm dilated! I could be 3 but her head is down so far that it has pushed my cervix back, & the dr didn't want to put me in more pain than I have been already lately. When I told him about the god awful pelvic pain that I have been having he kinda brushed it off & then said he could still move her head from the outside, so it wasn't because she was down to far, this was before he checked me. Then he check me & said "oh wow nevermind, her head is stationed and down so incredibly far no wonder you are in pain" then did a litterly 5 second ultrasound to see what he was moving, which was her shoulders. I was kinda sad it wasn't longer but understood. He did confirm that her head will def fit tho, so that is one obstacle we wouldn't be having. & my pushing would be limited because of how far down she is!
He is flabbergasted that my water hasn't broken, which I am not exactly sure why but ok. Have I mentioned how infuriated my dr is? Anyway, we talked of induction because of the pain, & he said he wanted to wait til I was 3 to 4 cm dilated. I was confused because I could be 3 but he didn't want to "hurt" me. But whatever, the man contradicts himself every other word I can't keep track. Anyway, Buggys heart beat was strong which is what we want, with my low fluid & cord around her neck it could cause some compression and stress on her but she is showing no effects by it. Thank goodness.
If she doesn't come in the next week or so, which he thinks she will; but hasn't he been saying this for 6 weeks now? I will def be induced before Thanksgiving, so my ladybug will be here for all of the holidays! SO EXCITING! I get to buy a my first Thanksgiving onesie! I can now officially say I am ready for her to come with all this pain. I was walking up the stairs Wednesday, well trying to walk. The stairs are very difficult for me now because of the pain. And when I got to the top I sat down to rest, & woke up more than 2 hours later?! Apparently, I passed out from the pain! NO FUN.
This past weekend we mourned the anniversary loss of baby angel #2. It was difficult, but made us so much more grateful than we already are if that is possible, for Kennedy. She is such a miracle. Hoping everyone has a awesome Halloween weekend! I shall be gaining 50 lbs worth of candy ;)
He is flabbergasted that my water hasn't broken, which I am not exactly sure why but ok. Have I mentioned how infuriated my dr is? Anyway, we talked of induction because of the pain, & he said he wanted to wait til I was 3 to 4 cm dilated. I was confused because I could be 3 but he didn't want to "hurt" me. But whatever, the man contradicts himself every other word I can't keep track. Anyway, Buggys heart beat was strong which is what we want, with my low fluid & cord around her neck it could cause some compression and stress on her but she is showing no effects by it. Thank goodness.
If she doesn't come in the next week or so, which he thinks she will; but hasn't he been saying this for 6 weeks now? I will def be induced before Thanksgiving, so my ladybug will be here for all of the holidays! SO EXCITING! I get to buy a my first Thanksgiving onesie! I can now officially say I am ready for her to come with all this pain. I was walking up the stairs Wednesday, well trying to walk. The stairs are very difficult for me now because of the pain. And when I got to the top I sat down to rest, & woke up more than 2 hours later?! Apparently, I passed out from the pain! NO FUN.
35 weeks!!!
12:15 PM
How far along? 35 weeks!! one week until we are "full term" WOOHOO! I am more at ease with her coming now! I just can't believe we are this far, SO crazy!
Total weight gain/loss: im thinking 15lbs now. we will see this week!
Sleep: sleep is for sissys ;) haha no but i don't sleep but maybe 45 mins a night.
Food cravings: I really want a HUGE box of nerds. Other than that, thats about it
Best moment this week: I went to this christmas warehouse, where they have a bunch of items for 1.49! & the baby section had infant/toddler leg warmers, leg-a-rooz, which i have been looking allll over for that weren't a arm & a leg! I was so excited, I bought all of the different patterns! :) oh & my hospital bags are finally packed!
Movement: all the time! it is actually quite painful, I believe that is from me having little to no fluid now.
Labor Signs: you know it, all the time contractions. it never ends, although it has lightened up SO much!
Gender: a mommy ladybug
Stretchies: I have now developed them on my sides, and one my lower tummy tucked underneath. they would appear this far haha
Belly Button in or out? its more flat than anything
What I miss: nothing, im really trying to soak up the last bit of the pregnancy right now. although I could without contraction,& horrible heartburn
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: Making it til next week!!
Weekly wisdom: Even though milk help your stomach with the heartburn, make sure you are eating LOTS of fiber, or lots of water on top of the milk because you will pay for it. :s
Emotions: I cry all the time just thinking about her, or looking at her stuff. Or anything that mentions family,daughter,mother haha
Total weight gain/loss: im thinking 15lbs now. we will see this week!
Sleep: sleep is for sissys ;) haha no but i don't sleep but maybe 45 mins a night.
Food cravings: I really want a HUGE box of nerds. Other than that, thats about it
Best moment this week: I went to this christmas warehouse, where they have a bunch of items for 1.49! & the baby section had infant/toddler leg warmers, leg-a-rooz, which i have been looking allll over for that weren't a arm & a leg! I was so excited, I bought all of the different patterns! :) oh & my hospital bags are finally packed!
Movement: all the time! it is actually quite painful, I believe that is from me having little to no fluid now.
Labor Signs: you know it, all the time contractions. it never ends, although it has lightened up SO much!
Gender: a mommy ladybug
Stretchies: I have now developed them on my sides, and one my lower tummy tucked underneath. they would appear this far haha
Belly Button in or out? its more flat than anything
What I miss: nothing, im really trying to soak up the last bit of the pregnancy right now. although I could without contraction,& horrible heartburn
What I am looking forward to: Her arrival!
Symptoms: everything. if it is a symptom of pregnancy i have it at this point haha
Milestones: Making it til next week!!
Weekly wisdom: Even though milk help your stomach with the heartburn, make sure you are eating LOTS of fiber, or lots of water on top of the milk because you will pay for it. :s
Emotions: I cry all the time just thinking about her, or looking at her stuff. Or anything that mentions family,daughter,mother haha
prayer for someone in need.
4:12 PM
When I first started blogging one of my first followers and the first person I started following and had talk to in WTE message boards. I met Lindsay from Adventures in Baby Making. We ended up getting pregnant only a few short weeks apart, but Linsday was pregnant with TWINS! Two boys! I love her posts and how she is so honest, and her updates about the boys. She hadn't updated in about 2 weeks when I saw her pop with a post name "because it only takes a moment to change your world" I thought for sure she had gone into early labor and her boys. But as I read I was devastated by what I was reading.
Lindsay was going to get some long sleeved maternity shirts & head home. As she was doing so, she was in an car accident. A ambulance has t-boned her on driver side of her car. She had broken left collar bone, left shoulder, several ribs on the left side, several cracked vertebra, tail bone, and pelvic bone (into three pieces), along with some bleeding in on her brain.
She gave birth to her boys prematurely at 33w4d. Lane went to the NICU but is in generally ok condition. Lucas on the other hand didn't make it. He was down very low in her pelvis and was crushed. You can read her story HERE and hopefully leave her a message.
I know you some are thinking well I dont know her, but everyone sometime just needs prayer. So, I am asking if you are reading this to say a prayer her Lindsay, her Husband & Lane. I can not even imagine the heart-ache they are going through.
I am holding my belly a little tighter tonight.
Lindsay was going to get some long sleeved maternity shirts & head home. As she was doing so, she was in an car accident. A ambulance has t-boned her on driver side of her car. She had broken left collar bone, left shoulder, several ribs on the left side, several cracked vertebra, tail bone, and pelvic bone (into three pieces), along with some bleeding in on her brain.
She gave birth to her boys prematurely at 33w4d. Lane went to the NICU but is in generally ok condition. Lucas on the other hand didn't make it. He was down very low in her pelvis and was crushed. You can read her story HERE and hopefully leave her a message.
I know you some are thinking well I dont know her, but everyone sometime just needs prayer. So, I am asking if you are reading this to say a prayer her Lindsay, her Husband & Lane. I can not even imagine the heart-ache they are going through.
I am holding my belly a little tighter tonight.
HELP: needing your imput and a dr appt update!
9:59 PM
I am doing this on my blackberry so bare with me if I mess something up, or it looks funny!
1st:
Need your ladies opninon on sleeping arrangements. What do you think it better co-sleeper vs. Play yard with bassinett on top vs. Normal bassinett vs. Moses basket
Also which is better to have upstairs and downstairs?!! HELP!
On to my appt today!
I am offically 1 cm dilated!! I got another steriod shot, which puts me at so much ease in case we don't make it these next few weeks til 36 weeks. I will be more "ok" with her coming. Also, her cord is around her neck which they failed to tell me when I got my results from my bio-physical. But he only sees it as a problem during labor when pushing. He said it happens to 15% of his deliveries and hasn't had a problem and the baby is always a-ok. Speaking of labor he did say that I should have a pretty painless and easy delivery with how low she is! Waaa-whoo! So depending on how far I'm dilated when its go time, I may go natural!
I'm still measuring small and I am "all baby not fluid" which is explains why I feel so much smaller. It also makes me nervous because I'm afraid I won't no when my water actually breaks since I've benn "leaking". Uggh. I guess I will just "know" like they say, but it still makes my head reel! I got my beta strep 3 weeks early, and should have the results I'm guessing by early next week. I have had some bleeding (which is cause by my cervix changing) and if it continues after today (I will probally bleed in a little which from him checking) and decrease in movement I go in next week, if not I wait another week! So, there's your update :)
1st:
Need your ladies opninon on sleeping arrangements. What do you think it better co-sleeper vs. Play yard with bassinett on top vs. Normal bassinett vs. Moses basket
Also which is better to have upstairs and downstairs?!! HELP!
On to my appt today!
I am offically 1 cm dilated!! I got another steriod shot, which puts me at so much ease in case we don't make it these next few weeks til 36 weeks. I will be more "ok" with her coming. Also, her cord is around her neck which they failed to tell me when I got my results from my bio-physical. But he only sees it as a problem during labor when pushing. He said it happens to 15% of his deliveries and hasn't had a problem and the baby is always a-ok. Speaking of labor he did say that I should have a pretty painless and easy delivery with how low she is! Waaa-whoo! So depending on how far I'm dilated when its go time, I may go natural!
I'm still measuring small and I am "all baby not fluid" which is explains why I feel so much smaller. It also makes me nervous because I'm afraid I won't no when my water actually breaks since I've benn "leaking". Uggh. I guess I will just "know" like they say, but it still makes my head reel! I got my beta strep 3 weeks early, and should have the results I'm guessing by early next week. I have had some bleeding (which is cause by my cervix changing) and if it continues after today (I will probally bleed in a little which from him checking) and decrease in movement I go in next week, if not I wait another week! So, there's your update :)
Monitors!
12:41 PM
Ok, Sorry for the over load of posts but my internet is in its tip-top con-dish so im using this time to blog it up!
Alot of my bloggie-pregnant friends haven't had their shower yet! So, I wanted to do kinda a rave/review on the monitor I got from my Mom for all of you that have yet to register or are looking for one on-line yourself! I have my 16 month old niece is in my care right now, because she is awful sick and her mother; well we wont go there. Anyway, she got to brake in buggy's room last night & I got to use my new monitor and had to tell ya'll about it!
First I must say, I was ify on the monitor when my mom first got it from me. I wanted one of those you know 300 dollar video ones. Which would be obv ideal, I have read alot of reviews & some of my mommy friends did not have such nice things to say about them, unless they were the ones that were like 500!
Not only can you turn on the night-light (which is so soothly, and it isn't to bright or too dull) from your side of the monitor and control the sounds (you get to pick between ocean sounds, & lullaby music) But, I litterly could hear her breath and every move she made when the receiving end was up on the dresser. Oh & when she cries it doesn't have the alarming "something must be horribly wrong" red lights! It has bright green ones that go up and down according to the volume of the cry, which I find less heart-attacky! :) What monitor you ask? It's the Fisher Price Remote Control Musical Audio Monitor N9147!
So, if you are looking for a not overly expensive, GOOD monitor check this one out!
Alot of my bloggie-pregnant friends haven't had their shower yet! So, I wanted to do kinda a rave/review on the monitor I got from my Mom for all of you that have yet to register or are looking for one on-line yourself! I have my 16 month old niece is in my care right now, because she is awful sick and her mother; well we wont go there. Anyway, she got to brake in buggy's room last night & I got to use my new monitor and had to tell ya'll about it!
First I must say, I was ify on the monitor when my mom first got it from me. I wanted one of those you know 300 dollar video ones. Which would be obv ideal, I have read alot of reviews & some of my mommy friends did not have such nice things to say about them, unless they were the ones that were like 500!
Not only can you turn on the night-light (which is so soothly, and it isn't to bright or too dull) from your side of the monitor and control the sounds (you get to pick between ocean sounds, & lullaby music) But, I litterly could hear her breath and every move she made when the receiving end was up on the dresser. Oh & when she cries it doesn't have the alarming "something must be horribly wrong" red lights! It has bright green ones that go up and down according to the volume of the cry, which I find less heart-attacky! :) What monitor you ask? It's the Fisher Price Remote Control Musical Audio Monitor N9147!
So, if you are looking for a not overly expensive, GOOD monitor check this one out!
33 weeks-ish!
12:21 PM
How Far Along: 33-34 weeks!!
How Big is The Baby: as of 2 weeks, 3lbs 5oz! According to the bump she is as big as a HONEYDEW!!
Total Weight Gain: 11lbs! although I think I have gained more this past week, even though I have been getting sick every morning. Yeah as if 5 and a half months of it in the beginning wasnt enough, lets add it to the end haha
Maternity Clothes: I really need to cave and get a pair of jeans, but I didn't want to spend a arm & a leg with my pre-term labor and only wear them once. I went to a second hand shop and the one pair that was my size, was PETITE. I was too tall :( so Ive been sticking to my velor sweat pants! :)
Sleep: Sleep? who sleeps? not this girl.
GENDER: a daddy's princess! :)
Movement: OMG, for you ladies that are just now feeling movement, or have been for a little while now! You are going to FLIP when you get this far. I see elbows & feet and all sorts of contortions! It is SO COOL! & super creepy some times haha
Food Cravings: nothing really, I could go for some papa johns pizza right now tho.
What I Miss: Well, I would not change a thing for this. But a day with out pre-term labor/contraction would be great. Just one.
What I'm looking forward to: Meeting my ladybug!
Milestones: Does bloodyshow count for a milestone I didn't want to come?
Symptoms: Heartburn, Colostrum, Leg Cramps, Constipation, Contractions
-speaking of this thought I would share that I was doing a photo session a few weeks ago, with a little baby and the family. A breeze came about & was confused by my chest feeling wet. I look down & I have leaked alllll the way thru my bra,under tank, & shirt. hahahaha
How Big is The Baby: as of 2 weeks, 3lbs 5oz! According to the bump she is as big as a HONEYDEW!!
Total Weight Gain: 11lbs! although I think I have gained more this past week, even though I have been getting sick every morning. Yeah as if 5 and a half months of it in the beginning wasnt enough, lets add it to the end haha
Maternity Clothes: I really need to cave and get a pair of jeans, but I didn't want to spend a arm & a leg with my pre-term labor and only wear them once. I went to a second hand shop and the one pair that was my size, was PETITE. I was too tall :( so Ive been sticking to my velor sweat pants! :)
Sleep: Sleep? who sleeps? not this girl.
GENDER: a daddy's princess! :)
Movement: OMG, for you ladies that are just now feeling movement, or have been for a little while now! You are going to FLIP when you get this far. I see elbows & feet and all sorts of contortions! It is SO COOL! & super creepy some times haha
Food Cravings: nothing really, I could go for some papa johns pizza right now tho.
What I Miss: Well, I would not change a thing for this. But a day with out pre-term labor/contraction would be great. Just one.
What I'm looking forward to: Meeting my ladybug!
Milestones: Does bloodyshow count for a milestone I didn't want to come?
Symptoms: Heartburn, Colostrum, Leg Cramps, Constipation, Contractions
-speaking of this thought I would share that I was doing a photo session a few weeks ago, with a little baby and the family. A breeze came about & was confused by my chest feeling wet. I look down & I have leaked alllll the way thru my bra,under tank, & shirt. hahahaha
xoxo, Tara
nursery update!
12:03 PM
here are some updated pictures! :) there is alot of "decor" stuff & knick knacks to put up still! But people have been asking so here we go!
Here bedding I got for a MAJOR steal. First off may I just say how flipping hard it is to find purple bedding that doesn't have a cartoon on it?? Anyway, 65% off of this set from Target, it is from the Dwell Studio & still on sale ladies! I need to get the changing table cover!
I plan on putting a canopy over her crib, as well as her chandler my DH has yet to put up! & then her three pictures will go above the crib as well.
Ugly black lamp, is still in there from painting!
So, Im a person that loves to re-juv furniture ect to save money. & my mom got this recliner that rocks for...FREE! it is brand new, BUT UGLY green. I wanted a chair with the texture of the blanket on it but I was having a really hard time finding one for uh less than a thousand. SO, I had this blanket but it had ripped, and it just so happened to be big enough to fit the chair. Right now its just stuffed and tucked into it, but I will be upholstering it on the chair when I get enough energy to do so! :)
I have to get the other two storage containers for her changing table. I wasn't sure on what bedding I was going to choose and Target has these SUPER cute ones with like a flower and hippo and what not, so I left two open until I figure it out! The thing on top is my super awesome diaper cake I got from my babyshower that is too cute to undo yet!
So Im thinking about doing either one or both with this one.
What do you think? Well hopefully you all enjoyed peakin into our little buggys room! :)
xoxo,Tara
ohhhh goodness.
12:13 PM
Lets catch you guys up, not last Sunday but the Sunday before, Brandon left to go fishing and litterly 20 minutes later I was having all this pressure and just needed to push, a lot of pressure. So we went to L&D, like the dr said to. They go to check my cervix, she pulls out her hand and it is covered in blood. My automatic thought, from everything I have known with my miscarriages, is something horrible and my baby is dying. I FREAK! and she asked if I have had my bloddy show yet, I reply no, & she tells me well now you have. My cervix is dilated a fingertip (1 cm) but which I didn't know there is two layers to a cervix and the part that is dilated in just the outter, & not the inner. But she said once that happens it pretty much the beginning of it dilating completely. When i was hooked up to be monitors, the nurse kept coming in & asking me about my contractions & I said I had only had one since I was there, & she looked at me funny and said I had been contracting the whole time (apparently I have become so used to it I dont notice the real little ones after four FLIPPIN weeks) anyway, I got a shot of breathane to stop the contractions and was monitored for a few hours.
I had an appt on Thursday, Dr said if he knew I was going to come in this week he would have told me not to because he didn't want to check me again because I was checked Sunday & checking again so close would stir up the membranes putting me into full-blown labor. SO, I go in next week, he wants to do my beta strep now instead of 36 weeks since delivery will be before then, but at this point I don't even feel like it going to happen anymore, & I just want her to come. I know selfish, as she deserves to go full-term but I am so EXHAUSTED. The constant contractions leave me so worn out, & in so much pain. The only thing that relives the pain is walking, which makes me have more contractions. I can never win. I have not complained my whole pregnancy, but now I'm freakin complaining. This is my 5th week of premature labor, & if one more women tells me "this is nothing, stop being a wimp, just wait for the real ones then you can say you are in pain" SHUT THE &#*$*U)(#$* up! You go thru 4-6 contractions a hour for 5 weeks and then call me a whimp, k thanks. :)
OK, I'm done now! I feel much better! :) I will update on my appt next week as soon as possible!
I had an appt on Thursday, Dr said if he knew I was going to come in this week he would have told me not to because he didn't want to check me again because I was checked Sunday & checking again so close would stir up the membranes putting me into full-blown labor. SO, I go in next week, he wants to do my beta strep now instead of 36 weeks since delivery will be before then, but at this point I don't even feel like it going to happen anymore, & I just want her to come. I know selfish, as she deserves to go full-term but I am so EXHAUSTED. The constant contractions leave me so worn out, & in so much pain. The only thing that relives the pain is walking, which makes me have more contractions. I can never win. I have not complained my whole pregnancy, but now I'm freakin complaining. This is my 5th week of premature labor, & if one more women tells me "this is nothing, stop being a wimp, just wait for the real ones then you can say you are in pain" SHUT THE &#*$*U)(#$* up! You go thru 4-6 contractions a hour for 5 weeks and then call me a whimp, k thanks. :)
OK, I'm done now! I feel much better! :) I will update on my appt next week as soon as possible!