Pre-Mature Labor.

12:40 PM
My contractions have not stopped. I have been prescribed breathane to diminish my contractions, although he did say I could still have them but they would less rhythmic. Which is the category I fall into. It also makes me feel like POO. To fill you in on last week, Sunday I thought my water broke so I went to L&D where they told me it didn't. I was a emotional wreck I didn't understand how I could have gotten that wrong. I had a appt the next morning at 9  where I told the Dr I was confused and I was still leaking whatever it was that had happened then. So he decided to do the same test since "there has been something werid about those sticks lately". Where the test indicated I was leaking amionic fluid, and she was measuring small. He took me into the US room and fastly looked & said it looked like i was low, but wanted a bio-physical ultrasound done by a tech. Then he checked my cervix where we learned my cervix is very short & very soft. He could feel  her head thru the thin layer!!! He classified me as now offically in "pre-mature labor". I JUST got the results back about my bio-physical, and my fluid is low, but not alarming. And no long measuring small, her head was just so low I was measuring small when he did it on my tummy. He gives me about 2 weeks til I go into active labor :/ she weight 3 lbs 2oz. which scares me because at my hospital any baby under 5 automatically goes into the NICU. Which is what we want to avoid. I am torn between the amount of fear and joy that I am going to meet her all at once. With the recent events all in the past week, we got our maternity pictures done before it was to late & had my babyshower (pictures to come) But here are some of my maternity pictures by the lovely Jess at J3Designz ENJOY! & continue to keep me & kennedy in your prayers & thoughts.

This is my one of my favs!
I was so exited when I saw this one, it is lyrics to my favortie song "capri" by colbie caillat

xoxo, Tara


6:54 PM
For the past 23 hrs I have been have 5-6 contractions a hour! Which according to my dr over 5 is labor, maybe not full blown but is. I go in first thing in the morning to check my cervix, if my water doesn't break by then he said! I'm so physically drained. As much as I want her in as long as possible I don't no how much I can take of all these contractions. They may start me on breathane (sp?) Tomorrow morning to stop the contractions depending on how things are going! Will update as soon as I can! In the meantime, prayers for jus a bit of comfort would be well appreciated!

entering FREAK OUT MODE.

11:49 AM
Tuesday I lost my mucus plug, not even 3 mins later i was having contractions about 10 mins apart. Dr my dr still did not want to see me because people can lose their plug and go into labor several weeks later & I had a apt Thursday. Yesterday only a few contractions I thought they had subsided. Today I went into for my apt. he wanted to check to see if i was dilated just to make sure I wasn't going into anything pre-maturely. And he gets quite and explains he cant even feel my cervix because the babies head is down so far. He explains to me, that i will be given a steriod shot to help mature her lungs and another tomorrow to help boost it. & calmly says I would give your water about 1-2 weeks before it breaks. And if it doesnt we will do a ultrasound to see how she is (he doesnt think she is growing properly) and if she isnt we will do a c-section because she will be better outside my tummy.

He says the steriods should mess up my contraction but doesnt want to anything dramstic because he knew she was going to come early and we should let nature do its "thing". His calmness makes me want to kick him in the head. So we wait. 

contractions :/

3:53 PM
Well, my weekend was full of contractions & a few this week so far! Very scary. Since they are not close enough together my dr wants to see my next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which honestly freaks me out! He said he doesn't want to mess around "down there" and stir up the membranes that will make me go into labor? But if I get more, more close together go straight to Labor & delivery! Im not ready for her to come yet :S im so scared of her being in the NICU it is all i dream/nightmare about. Last night it seemed so real I woke up & my first thought was to hurry & get dressed to go to the hospital! I have only had 2 today, which put me at ease.

On a less frantic note, we moved up my baby shower date because of all this & dr has "money" on her coming early. So we spent a day registering while i was having contraction, it was actually kinda funny. Brandon litterly scanned everything that said dad & daddy on it, it was adorable. I will leave you wish this weeks bump picture!

xoxo, Tara