Please do not complain every freakin minute on facebook about how much pregnancy sucks, you want to drink so badly & "this kid better be worth it"

There is a BILLION people that would love to be having back pain & not drinking for that very much worth it "kid".

I was kind of sad that after my post-op; I had the that kind of anger it came back to me oh so fast. I used to be so smug all of our time trying, & miscarrying. I would fume when my sister would come home from high-school &  say so-n-so got pregnant..on the pill. {god has a awful sense of humor}Or the one-hundredth person posted on their facebook, "Im pregnant". But then, I got to do it. I got to post that. Which so many other people have not.

Tell me, how can the anger come back so fast? I am so thankful for my little miracle, but why now does that anger come back to me so freakin fast? It was like "you may not be able to carry another pregnancy" BOOM, anger. I am not a angry person.  & so what I may not be able to carry another, I have a baby already. So why can't I be happy for these "opps I'm pregnant" people?

A baby planned or not, is a gift. & I shouldn't sit here & be angry about it.

I guess they aren't kidding that infertility stays with you forever, even after a successful pregnancy. I think it goes without saying that the losses do.

& can anyone else let me know why there is a girl I know who smoked & drank her entire pregnancy, on top of other things, has unbelievably healthy children, & I didn't as much as drink a drop of caffeine for Christ sake & my baby is sitting next to me hook up to a machine?

Yes, I am a little but hostile today. But, from the happy optimistic person I usually am, I am aloud to be freakin mad at the gosh dang world one day a  year.

Rant over.
Have a wonderful day ;)

I tend to offend people with my once a year rants on here, sorry if I did. But I needed to vent!