Hey just cause we got a baby strapped to our abdomen does not mean we stopping having wants/desires!
Ladies I give you:
Pregnancy Porn.
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updates!
9:08 PM
First wednesday: I woke up feeling odd, the night before I had alot more discharge than normal {sorry for the TMI} i didn't think it was alarming, but enough for me to notice. Then in morning/mid-afternoon, my biggest fears came true. contractions, freakin in my back contractions t hat reminded me so much of labor it was unreal. Brandon flew home from work, & we went to the dr. I had some progression in my cervix he didnt say what just that there was, my pH was normal which is good; I already have my anatomy scan for Friday, so he said unless they continue; which they started at 3 mins apart, then died down to 6-7 min & by the end of the day maybe 1 an hour. to come in the next day or during the night if need be. Luckily I was just sore the next day from the contractions & none continued!
Anatomy scan went perfect, & my cervix was still pretty "good" for me that is! It was seriously the scariest day. everything we have been praying not happen, started. & it was terrifying; but all in all turned out well.
I am part-time bed rest, but really just take it easy as much as i can with a toddler. I just, like he said before really need to be in tune with my body/uterus & its cues. which I feel like I have so I will continue!
Baby’s Size: The size of an grapefruit
Total Weight Gain: still none, but I am to my weight as of my first OB appt; so from here on out, bring on the weight gain!
Bellybutton: innie!
Stretchmarks: none!
Maternity Clothes: I can still fit into my jeans, they are actually very big on me, but where the button lies they are super uncomfortable. So I bought my first pair of maternity jeans. I never had to with kennedy; I got them on sale for 22$! which is amazing; & they are super comfy!
Movement: Oh yes, you & see & feel it!
Sleep: Sleep is still good. Waking up pretty early, which I did with Kennedy; I think it is your bodys way of getting you ready for baby!
Symptoms: Cravings, colostrum, emotional what am i saying I am always emotional just more than ever!
Food Aversions: None
Food Cravings: Chocolate cake & strawberry milk!
Best Moments this week: Speaking of being emotional, the trailer for "The Vow" came on, & i saw started bawling while eating my choclate cake. Brandon turned to me & said I was the definition of a mess; & we died laughing for 10 minutes! Also, getting her room cleared out & furniture bought & put in!
What I miss: Nothing, although a glass or 5 if wine sound so appetizing! :)
What I am Looking forward to: Alisha & I painting the her room!
Milestones: Daddy feeling kicks!
moms
1:24 PM
oh hey. :)
did you love that i hosted the home tour & stopped after day one?
yeah uh..OPPS!
my laptop kinda broke in two!
I have a post update coming but I wanted to take a second to write post after I saw this post from Baby Rabies
I was honestly in shock of the responses she got.
it was alot like when I got 2 emails after saying we may not RF til 2; & one said i just kill my daughter myself now. RIDICULOUS.
Ya'll we are MOMS.
We ALL do things differently.
Each doing whats best for their family.
Let me tell you I am not perfect.
We co-slept {still do sometimes} & bedshared for over 6 months!
I babywear.
I babywear.
I couldnt breastfeed with kennedys milk tolerance past 3 months.
I now have let Kennedy CIO a couple times.
She had whole milk 3 weeks before turning one.
She is Forward facing in her car seat.
She has had sips of pop.
She loves pizza & sometimes doesnt have a fruit & veggie with every meal.
OK?
in 95% of your guys' minds I am horrible mother right now for doing one of those things!
So many moms are SO quick to judge & it honestly makes me sick.
One mom might get on another for not ERF {extended rear facing} but didn't breastfeed. Each have stats towards both.
One mom will give another a hard time for co-sleeping but started solids before 6 months. Each having stats towards both.
But are SO fast to throw up stats in your face for what your doing WRONG; but have other stats against them.
Do you get what I am saying?
We all need to support each other.
There are going to be things we dont agree with, but if their child is not being actually harmed like abuse ect. support that mom. You don't have to do what they are doing.
I know I have said it time & time again, but I LOVE reading/listening to other parenting techniques, I would never have heard of co-sleeping ect if I hadn't. I dont't have to do the things other parents are doing; but we all need to support each other!
Do whats best for you child & family, Stats against you or with you.
& if you agree head on over & take the mom pledge!
Home Tour
9:29 AM
Where your family eats!
The kitchen!
We hopefully this year will be remodling alot of this. new countertops & appliances.
But for some that don't know we bought the house I grew up in 60% of my life. & My family remoded the whole house about 10 years ago so it has already came along way, but we want to make it more "our style.
Little wine touches everwhere. The cookbook One Handed Cook; is probally one of my favs! Great babyshower gift!
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| where kennedy eats |
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| this part o the kitchen is much more cluttered haha |
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| side note: that phone doesnt even work, we just keep it on there to cover up the phone jack :) |
On to the dining room!
The number one room in my home that I HATE.
The border KILLS me. Oh mother.
We already re placed the light because well that was 10x worse than the border.
We already re placed the light because well that was 10x worse than the border.
In the next 2-3 weeks, that is going; we are painting it a some what gray. & The wall the the huge shelf is on will have 3 thinner IKEA shelves with all of our updated photos on it.
So its kinda bare in here until then!
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| there is probally a random elephant in every room of our house. I love them; & they remind me of my grandma who i have only heard amazing things about, she passed away when i was only a few months old! |
Ok, now LINK UP! I want to see where you eat!
Also Check out these two too! ;)
Also Check out these two too! ;)
Home Tour Series!
12:30 PM
I am super excited for next week! Ive been wanting to do a home tour series for awhile, & when I asked on twitter if anyone would be interested the response was great!
Randalin had a great idea for everyone to participate since not everyone has a house, but a apartment,loft condo ect. so the days are divided into general categories! You can do more than one room as well; so like monday you could do your kitchen &; dining room ect! or if where you eat is your living room you can post that too!
Heres the low down starting next week this will be the schedule:
Monday: Where you & your family eat {kitchen,nook,dining room ect.}
Tuesday: Where you & your family sleep {bedrooms}
Wednesday: Where you & your family work & play {office/playroom ect}
Thursday: Where you & your family relax {living room, study ect}
Friday: Favorite parts of your house that make it YOUR home {in photos}
So clean or don't clean your house we want to see your home as your home & get your pictures ready for Monday; stop on back & link up! The linky goes live monday morning!
These other two ladies will be sharing the linky; so make sure you stop by & check out their homes & say HI!
quick belly pics!
8:38 PM
I will do a more updated post & 22 weeks but for now; this should suffice your bump pic cravings :)
have you missed me?
2:55 PM
Im still reading; but honestly I have no time to blog.
ok I lied I probally do since I sit on google reader & read all of your posts everyday but I do that from my phone & blogging on a phone just isnt the same, ya know?
This is just gonna be a mass update of the holidays & a post to follow on pregnancy! :)
are you ready?
good!
We had Daddy home for a the whole week of christmas!
Also, I finally got on iphone wagon; & have IG follow me: mrsmumaw
I hosted my first christmas eve! & it was a success!
Christmas.
We started to convert the front living room to a playroom! I cant wait to show the final product!
Kennedy started saying 2-3 word senteces very clearly! Here is a video of her telling my parents dog to "go away"
I am trying to think of anything else; right now I cant! Stay tuned for my pregnancy update next! :)
incompetent cervix
5:52 PM
Today was my appt with the ultrasound tech to check my cervix again
they do it with a trans-vaginal ultrasound since a internal exam by my dr could disrupt membranes ect
anyway I am still a fingertip dilated which I have been from the start of the pregnancy so this is great
My dr & I with brandon have sat down & done alot of reasearch & with the new research done there is alot that has said that cerclage isnt the best option anymore & alot of time 85% the woman would have gotten however far in her pregnancy with out one.
On top of that, it something OBs are just throwing out & over using now-a-days
So I have gotten TONS of questions about how all this applies to me
I have a incompetent cervix meaning :Cervical incompetence is a medical condition in which a pregnant woman's cervix begins to dilate (widen) and efface (thin) before her pregnancy has reached term. Internal os opening more than 1 cm is abnormal and cervical length less than 2 cm is considered diagnostic. Cervical incompetence may cause miscarriage or preterm birth during the second and third trimesters.
Also I didn't have this with Kennedy, during my post op is when I learned that my tissue was pretty much discenergrating giving me the incomptent cervix. Which is why they gave me the deadline of August to be able to give birth with any hope of a successful delivery.
There is something called a TRUE incompetent cervix which I do not have. This is when you pretty much with out warning can feel your baby head between your legs & will give birth SOON without any notice.
There is something called a TRUE incompetent cervix which I do not have. This is when you pretty much with out warning can feel your baby head between your legs & will give birth SOON without any notice.
I am have a weakened incompetent cervix! I am in the middle on the scale of prone to preterm labor & true incompetent cervix.
So I am always a fingertip dilated which my dr is not concerned about. What I have to watch for is not over doing it & watching my braxton hicks & contractions; within one to two contractions I can go from a fingertip to 8cm in a matter of mins; which we NOW know is one of the reasons for my just under 4 hour labor with kennedy.
Throwing a cerclage in my cervix I could do & hope for the best.
But I am the best advocate for me & my baby & the risks I am not willing to take. With all my research, & my drs & his knowledge we are going to prolong this as much a possible so i will have my cervix checked every few weeks & inbetween them I will really need to be intouch with my body & baby!
If you have any other questions please let me know, I have no problem answering them!
annonunced!
5:32 PM
its facebook official!
we're pregnant! :)
i was kinda nervous, that some people would be offended; but the response was mind blowing & the things said about me, my husband & us a family had me in tear all night! I got around 60 comments & too many to count emails!
we are so touched how happy people are for us!
ultrasound pics!
10:00 AM
Here is from about 10 weeks ago!
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| can you see the itty foot in the right corner? you can see all the toes! I just die! |
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| sucking on her hand :) |
from yesterday:
time
9:41 AM
Oh my goodness, tomorrow is ultrasound day
its so bittersweet, with the bitter is being as sweet as ever.
I dont think the word for what I am feeling is struggling, more like scared? maybe intimidated?
Let me explain.
Ive been wanting to do this post for awhile but didnt want to seem um.. awful!
This pregnancy is SO different!
first being I seriously forget how far along I am..& to me I want to punch myself in the face for; with kennedy i knew no joke almost down to the hour how far along I was ha! I sometimes "forget" I am pregnant, not when im half way thru a bottle wine type of forgetting; but sometime I will get envious of a pregnant person & be like oh wait I am pregnant, DUH.
I know alot of this is I am running around after a toddler, which people tell me daily. & I also know it is because we haven't officially announced, & honestly about 75% of the people we know do not know at all that Im pregnant. I also am coming into terms that maybe I am just scared, of the what if's, dont go all "Tara you need to stay positive nothing will happen" on me, I am not thinking of the worst but I also need to have in the back of my mind what COULD happen GOD FORBID, when 2 dr tell you, you have 80-85% of having a giving birth at 14-24 weeks or after still early, even tho we are going past each week praising God you dont take that lightly.
Am I cheating this baby?
Not being as in the moment with this pregnancy like with Kennedy?
My mind plays this guilt game every.single.day.
& then there is Kennedy, I am almost HALF way thru my pregnancy; this is crazy! It going by SO fast, & I feel like I need more time with just her. But then again baby #2 wont get that individual time?
Do you see? I see all these mommas saying I know I can love two babies the same, & I KNOW I can too; but to love another as much as Bug completely baffles me. & to me that sounds like the worst sentence any mother could ever say.
So tomorrow, this pregnancy become REAL, we will know WHO baby #2, boy or girl, what his/her name will be; & be able to tell Kennedy if she is having a brother or sister.
Am I the worst momma ever? How did you handle your second pregnancy?
Loving Two
I walk along holding your 1-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?
Then she is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as youve never shared me before.
I hear you telling me in your own way, Please love only me. And I hear myself telling you in mine, I cant, knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.
But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. Im afraid to let you see me enjoying her as though I am betraying you.
But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection.
More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.
But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other.
I watch how she adores you as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I havent taken something from you, Ive given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you only differently.
And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know youll never share my love. There is enough of that for both of you .you each have your own supply.
I love you-both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.
17 weeks!
12:51 PM
17 weeks today!
& I wanted to do still do these since I did with kennedy!
Here is my 17 week update with Kennedy: HERE
How Far Along: 17 weeks today!
How Big is The Baby: as big as an onion
Total Weight Gain: technically nothing, from my first OB appt I have lost ALOT with being so sick, but I am up ONE pound, so as soon as I get over my weight from my first appt is when they count it as weight gain!
Maternity Clothes: I did buy 2 shirts from love21 it doesnt look like a maternity shirt but i have worn it!
Sleep: not losing any due to pregnancy besides to pee a couple times maybe, just cause of bug being so sick
Gender:soon we will know!
Movement: I felt something last week, a flutter; it was amazing.
Food Cravings: a local restaurant munchies mm.. all the time its all i want!
What I Miss: nothing
What I'm looking forward to:finding out the gender! & getting my cervix length check on friday! Ill do a whole post about incompetent cervix & what I have learned & about mine!
Milestones: 2nd tri!
for you view pleasure:
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| my point & shoot sucks. |
Im alot bigger than last time, but then again I am fatter then last time haha
Here I am with Kennedy at 17weeks!
Boy or Girl?
11:47 AM
Ok ya'll we found TUESDAY!
can you believe it?
I can't!
So I want to take a poll on which you think!!
christmas tree
11:39 AM
For the past 4 year we have been going to the same Christmas tree farm!
I only have pictures from the last 3 :(
You go & find your tree & cut it down yourself
this little old couple who owns it sits in their little camper & come out & take a picture of you with your tree so you can come back the following tree to see it!
When we got out of the truck the old man went to the albums, & found out picture just by seeing us! Its so neat & such a fun tradition!
We always go the sunday after Thanksgiving but it was raining so we went this past sunday!
It was WET the water was past my ankles & soaked thru my boots to my socks! YUCK!
We left bug in the truck since it was so cold & she was out cold {she is STILL sick}
Anyway here is the past 3 years!
notice how I get fatter with each year haha & some how managed the both of us to wear something the same!
